Mind-boggling

This boggles me....

When on earth did I become old and weak? Why, at a young age of 35, I already feel as if my all the energy of my youth has been drained out of my body.

I consider myself atheletic, I joined all the sportsfest at work, I used to go to gyms 3x a week, I play badminton regulary, and yet why do I feel like I didnt take care of myself?

Why 3 months ago, I felt my head exploding, the back of my neck aching and my heart pounding loudly? Being the health freak that I am, I went to see a doctor the following morning and found out that my blood pressure is higher than normal. All the vital organs, however, are functioning well. No abnormality whatsoever inside my body. But why do I feel like this isnt me anymore?

Most of the time, I feel dizzy...I can feel palpitations in my heart..

The cardio said, must be stress...coudlnt be..i try to lead a stress-less life...my philosophy in life is "i couldnt be bothered"...what could have possibly triggered that?

Am thinking, what about burn-out? I think Ive been doing the same thing for more than a decade and a change of heart is what i need.

Well, whatever it is..I dont frigging like it..

Im feeling nauseous again...dang

Curtain call

ive always been fascinated with movies...bata pa ako nun..i can still remember the first movie that i watched..was 6yrs old then...christmas time..it was a nino muhlach starrer--Tahan na, Empoy, tahan na...it was a tearjerker movie, pero di ako naiyak..i was more curious and in awe abt the whole experience (ok, ok, half lang yata ng screen ang nakikita ko cus i was so small then and standing ovation noon)...

after that experience, sabi ko sa sarili "paglaki ko, manonood ako ng movie at least once a month"..and while growing up, i logged in all the movies that i watched in my "Movie Notebook"...

we are not rich...so, we couldnt afford to see a movie as much as we wanted to...but for me, that didnt deter me from seeing all the blockbuster films at that time...lagi akong nanonood ng mga trailers sa tv (sa ch 9 and ch 13) and i took note of the date that they are gonna be released...saka ako mag-iipon....ipon talaga ako..sa liit ng baon ko, minsan naglalakad na lang ako pauwi para makapag-save lang...babaw lang naman ng kaligayahan ko noon, ok na sa akin mapanood sina Maricel Soriano, William Martinez, Julie Vega, Gabby Concepcion at syempre si Sharon Cuneta :)

and now, after 3 decades and thousands of films later, im still in awe with the whole movie experience...at least ngayon, medyo mataas na ang ambition ko, not once-a-month-movie na..it's like once-a-week-movie and di pa kasama dyan yung mga movies sa HBO, Star Movies, Cinemax...and i feel very lucky because lately nagsulputan na ang ang diff film festivals (yipeee): cine europa, spanish film festival, french film festival, italian film festival, cinemanila, pati yung sa titus bradsma sa new manila pinuntahan ko na rin :D...

but no matter how many movies ive seen, i cant still get enough of it...nandito pa rin ako..lagi pa ring naghihintay ng new movies to be released...di na yata matatapos ang fascination ko with films....

....and im not complaining...:) ...